Somehow I belong ^.^

Having the personality of people’s person. It is given that you get along with different types of person . Having that kind of trait makes me feel I’m truly blessed. From being dumb, loner, pessimistic, and loser one now I can say that I’m more improved than ever.

I wasn’t a little pretty girl , so that my classmates always bullying me. As a child that kind of situation can make a mark for life. So I grew up lonely of course I have my family beside me but best friend? I don’t have. I’m longing for a friend. But as the time goes by and years passed my faith grows and my way of thinking changes, I realized how good GOD we have and how powerful HE is in my life.

If I’m going to compare who is fam before and after, I could say that there is a BIG!! As in BIG changes happens. I could remember the tag line that my fiend gave me way way back then, she said that I’m “barkada ng bayan” the fact that I know evry person in our campus and even the janitors.. hihi ^.^

I would like to share this certain group that I wouldn’t lie that I ‘m having so much time spending my time with them. They are the Psychology students’ friends. ^.^



Yeah I know it’s a bit weird coz I’m nursing students and they are psychology . I didn’t know how it all began all I can say is I can find joy when I’m with them.

The fact that the school can consider as small community . the community of psychology is smaller hihi ^.^ but now it is growing.

Originally I only have two psychology friend . kim and nica former classmates in the subject CHEMISTRY!














nica
at first she’s the shy type well, until now she is!^.^ a very charming ,beautiful(obviously) and has a golden heart . MAHINHIN also.
I spend more time with her when our schedule collides and during our break hours she always tells her story with her past boyfriend and she always make “sumbong” what he has done. And I think that’s the time we became close.











Kim - I wouldn’t lie that my first impression to this girl wasn’t good. She has this thing that when she’s going to look at you , you might think that this girl is criticizing you but It suddenly change when I decided to know her more . and now I can say that we’re close.. ^.^















Manel - I mentioned her at my previous blog. Yes sh’s one of them. I have known her in short time but in that short period I can say that being helpful is natural to her. And what makes her beautiful? Because she has an intimate relationship with GOD . and I’m thankful that sometimes we have this conversation and our main topic is our Savior ,GOD.













Jessel
A lot of negative things I have always encounter about this guy
–He’s always absent, not giving attention to studies. And because I’m approachable whenever we crossed each others way I tend to say hi or make wave ( I always do that to everyone). And we became close I think the time that he congratulated me after we performed our dance piece in cheering. And mind you people he’s my “suki” in my jokes when everybody find it’s corny. To him it’s funny I don’t know if he’s laugh were true or whatever! Hihi ^.^
















Herald – he became my classmate when I decided to change my section in some subjects. One of my partners in crimes . together with my classmates Jp,Cleto, and felipe
We always laugh hard. To the max! and somehow I feel like a boy












Jollibee - Our clown. She can make your tummy aches because of her way making us happy in her simple way, her “ words of wisdom” can make your day bright. I’ m always look for her because my day wouldn’t be complete without her. Hihi ^.^ mwha!









Jeane -












my new friend in psych . you may think that she’s a teenager but she’s not.. hihi what I remember was I shouted her name out loud and she was surprised not because I called her but because of my loud voice! Hihi^.^ JI ANNE!!!!!!!!
I do believe that we will share more moments together. (BABY< BABY BABY oh!!!!)








Ate kath - golden voice of FCI, who hates vinegar so much. very out loud and regine look alike? Of course!! No wonder.hihi ^.^


















Others…













I may not mention them each but I do want them to be recognize.
It’s nice to have them ^.^




Special thanks to:











Mam Au.. Our dear guidance counselor Hihi ^.^ the best!
of all the students.. She allows me to stay in her good office. And she allows me to show my talent in front of new students,(may talent? te?)


thanks mam!!!




Mam cecil...






a very kind hearted person.. hihi.. thanks mam.. kahit minsan maingay kami sa guidance..I do appreciate you.. hihi

looking through the mirror

Have you ever look to a mirror? Of course all of us, then what do you see?
WE try to improve ourselves by putting some beauty products, regimen, and make ups. Just to feel good. Right? Now have you ever look deeper into the mirror?
Looking to that you wished you were someone else? If your answer is YES, maybe you could check your self-esteem percentage.

In a survey that I've watched in a television, many people ask that if they were given a chance would you like to change yourself?Most of them answered that they want to change physically that will adore by many. Example, physical appearance, you wished to be like some T.V. personality. Money: to buy all the stuffs that are "in" now a days to buy fashionable clothes, shoes, accessories etc.

How do you feel when you have those? Happy? But I’m telling you that kind of happiness doesn’t last. If your happiness relies on those things it will always be limited things are not guaranteed to last .

God created us with love , He created us uniquely we don’t have to be someone else’s foot just to be like them. And you know what every time you will look down yourself is the same that you ashamed to GOD. because He’s the one who made you.

I don’t think God uses Xerox machine to duplicate the traits or talent of each people.
We have our own distinction. Different personalities and with that, GOD is really great for creating you and me.

Now you still want to copy some famous celebrity?
No need cause in the eyes of GOD, YOU are celebrity.. ^.^

The woman named Helen E. Somo And to all mothers out there!! ^.^

Yeah I know it’s late, I thought that mother’s day celebration is on the third day of May sorry I stand corrected. Anyway, my subject to this blog of course, my mom and also to all my friends’ mothers. I will not lift my mama just because it’s her day but I will just share to you how much she means to me. Ready?

As a child I grew up with my parents’ care, I’m more frightened with my mother than to my father (believe it). My mother’s personality is strong that she always punish me everytime I’ve done wrong thinking that I’m the most pasaway among our siblings so now I understand why .. hihi..

I envy my classmate evrytime they make lambing with their mothers and it made me wonder why my mother is not like that. In our family we are three sibling my kuya,( the eldest, math whiz) and the youngest Erika ( who maintained high grades, until now).
The fact that I’m an average type of student I always thought that their was a favoritism I our family and I’m the less priority. At the end I’m the most pity person in the world.

But how it change my way of thinking? That’s when she rescued me from bullies in my school, she scolded those bullies and thought them a lesson. Above all mention to my mother instead of being afraid to my mama it change into amazed and proud, at the back of my mind saying, “yan si mama ko.”]



The time that I know more of the Lord , as my love for my mother grows. I appreciate her everyday. We are facing many problems and trials, well I know that is normal, sometimes she’s mad at me but it never crossed my mind to fight back for I know the reason that it would break my mother’s heart.

There was an experience that when my mother went away for some reason. (I will no longer mention the problem it’s confidential)
Since, I’m studying in Manila it’s normal for me to say “Ma alis napo ako.” And the expected response: “ok sige mag pray ka at mag txt ka pag nasa bahay kna.”


Truly I missed that when she went away I longing for her voice that used to be a shout when she is mad at me. A week before my 19Th birthday at the bus I was thinking of my mother wondering what she was doing, and thinking also about her health knowing the fact that she’s not young anymore. I thought of the wonderful things she did to me and suddenly tears falls down to my face, I cover my mouth with handkerchief so that the people inside the bus could not hear me crying. That's the time I realized that I cant live without my mama and how important she is.


One night I’m praying for her asking the Lord ; “Lord please kahit birthday gift mo nalang sakin. I want my mama to go home.” Tears fell down.


The day of my birthday my mother called me up at exactly 6:30 am
Her voice was normal it seems that nothing’s wrong.

“Happy birthday! Pasensya kana wala ako diyan . sige na pasok ka naingat ka diyan.”

“opo ma.”

That small conversation made me cry I don’t know what I’m going to do with my eyes they don’t stop crying. At that moment it make my heart cracked, I can’t explain the feeling all I want was my mama to come home.

At school my mother texted me she was asking for my prayers and so I did. I speak blessings and more and more. And it was my final examination so it was a rush.
Thinking of my mother and thinking for the exam.. whoo!!!
That night she texted me again;

“pinagpray mo ba ko?”
“opo” I replied
“thanks, nasa bahay nako.”

The feeling of great happiness was in my heart! it seems that my heart wants to leap for joy ^.^ I thanked God so much after I have received that message.

Now my relationship with mother is smoothly. I love her so much!thinking that my mother doesn't love me was stupid. And I will anything just to make her proud. ^.^
to show my love ..although di ko papabasa sa kanya to..

as God told me how precious my mother is , I always shares this experience with some friends who doesn't understand their mothers.

some said that I'm weird because of all the daughters " ako pa ung gustong masermonan ako"

in that case I know that my mother loves me too.

Mother is a gift of God. That should be cherished and loved. She shed tears in bringing us in this world. She is considered as small hero.

A mother loves her family; her greatest is to see her family happy.

A mother deserves to be honored not just once in a year but everyday.


to all, happy mother's day...!!! make them proud...




my parents..

























that's my mother and I during our retreat ..saying sorry...

dream came true ^.^

In the world of performing, what I enjoy the most is acting, and dancing is my way of playing.. As a performer by heart,back to my old school "Holy Angel University" I used to involved myself in performing when there is an event the professors always count on us for that. Everytime i performed with my full confidence it feels like my heart wants to leap because of the joy, lalo na if some people will appreciate it
it's more encouraging diba?

As I've said earlier, I dance as if I'm playing, I've tried many types of dance, like interpretative dance,Hip-Hop,jazz,and a bit of ballroom. But Cheering is my dream and when the opportunity comes I was not that ready when our school decided to open an audition my self esteem goes down, and negatives thoughts bombarded me. And I think that cheering or pep squad don't suites me. But when the time that I'm ready eh un ung time na magttransfer na ko.

When I transferred here in manila I thought my dream will be just only a dream. Until I found that every year FCI (my school) launches sports fest and in each department should have their cheering squad. My first year in the said school I only observed the performance of each delegates and I was like " OOHh cool, ma try nga next year."

And so that day comes, I'm really excited to perform again for almost a year and a half I'm going to perform again and take note my dream dance and particularly i want the position of flyer why? Just an experiment I want to know how it feels to be thrown away knowing that the person down is going to catch me ..^.^

my friends and classmate know how excited I am to dance,(diba guys? hihi) and so our first night of practice we are all girls but the first was enjoyable.

next we practiced with the lifter wherein Pol and Gerald are my lifter and Marcgh and Manel are the spotter.. At first it was hard to control your balance because of course it's my first time but I learned how be relaxed thanks to my team hihi ^.^

everytime we practice the more pressure we are, we are so rushed that we only have
two weeks to prepare for the competition, costumes, props, everything all in a rushed
but the spirit of the determination burns inspite of all problems still we really want to compete "lalo na ako!! gusto ko talaga ituloy!"

nonstop practicing, thirst, exhausting ahh we experience and the scold of our choreographer hay, imagine that with matching school works to be done! san kapa? but we endure this one just to have fun right guys? and so the day of the competition comes today we just dance and give the people the best shot although the last part of our lifting collapses because of the wrong balancing, but all in all it's beautiful hihi ^.^.


We just finished the cheering in just 8 days can you imagine that? HIHI ^.^ can't believe it but it's true hihi ^.^EH panu pag nakapagprepare pa kami? hihi Just kidding!

by the way just want to say all the L.A. cheering squad win or lose I enjoyed everything.. hihi

here are some of our pictures








here's Manel one of the spotter she is also our muse.. during our practices she is always forget the steps and always asking " anu kasi ung susunod na steps?" but you know what, during our performance she never ask for the next step. She dances very graceful.. hihi nice one Manel! Thank you also for not giving up...





Margie ^.^ the spotter she's with Manel, she's good also in dancing and the sexy one, no baby fats hihi ^.^ thank you also Margch for staying in the group.. ^.^













ohh!!my two lifter, very strong and tough!!!! weh!!!!! ^.^

















POL- Sorry for the bone breaking, skin friction, head turning, and I know the reason behind your dirty shirt is because of me..^.^ but I do enjoy working with you, and thank you for joining us..and sharing what you got...nice meeting you by the way.. ^.^














Gerald We met before because we used to be classmate in section B. now that I'm in section A, I do miss the times when the boys of section B including you singing my name in the crowd "SOOOOOOOOMMMMMOOOOOO!" hihi ^.^ and I feel sorry for your hand that everytime you will lift me up your hand aches and I feel guilty whenever my movement is wrong that we have to repeat it all over again .. so sorry!! nice working with you bud!















The photos are so many that I cant post it all here just check it out on my Fb account Mafie_dan @yahoo.com.ph

well anyway to Ish: thank you sa paghatid mo sakin ah.. hihi I've had alot of fun eating with you.. hihih sarap kumain noh!!hihi

To grave : hay nku super kulit hihii... salamat sa mga trip hihihi super trip!!

to Dhen : nku harapan ka panaman din!! joke... nice to meet you in deeper.. I may know you just because your my classmate but now i can say that your my friend also.. hihi ( Ang drama!)hihi


to Donna - makulit ka din eh noh?hihi you will never forget this kind of experience .. right? SUKI!! hihi peace out.. baka magalit si daddy mo..







rhea - thank you for pursuing cheering ah eventhough you're not feeling well but still you continue.

cath - aun.. nagkasama na tayo sa rizal non eh.. hihi you know me well hihi ^.^ i miss the way i make you laugh

pau - like donna suki ka din.. it's nice to see you laughing because of my wackiness hihi^.^

cecil - wla ka man sa pix we do give you thanks for your humble house.. salamat for lending me jogging pants and shirt ha,,,

mikko - ung laging high blood hihi wlang gnawa hung di magalit.. hihihi... peace out!!just kidding..... thank you so much!!!!!

Agnes and MOnet - Our first year participant.. thank you for joining.. we enjoy your company sa uulitin ha... nice meeting both of you new friends... ^.^



to kuya nathan thank you for partnering with us..eventhough na high blood ka samin..
and for the headaches,, inspite of the code names; mga tipaklong, gagamba, shunga shunga and everything we will never had a good dance like we did in the crowd nevertheless thank you!^.^










and to lester: for the last minute dumating ka.. you're a savior hihi ^.^ although you came late you are game to dance dance ballet !! thank you!!



to William - thank you for helping us kahit na di ka sumayaw dahil di ka namin mapilit you're so kind and well mannered we do appreciate that... salamat ng madami!!











special thanks to: ryan hahaaha!!! for the last minute we thought na di mo kami sisiputin and Ish almost cry beacuse wala kapa.. but thank you for your cooperation na kahit minsan you're always late..



















here are some photos of our rehersals, and props making..









right after rehearsals..going home!!!!!






















































































and of course I would like to thank my BESTFRIEND (GOD) who guided me along the way eventhough my mind wants to quit but He said no, so without His love my dream will be just a dream, His love gives me strength and determination to continue cheering thank you BESTFRIEND!!! my confidence comes from YOU!!! love you !!!












GUYS!!!!we made it... thank you !!!! mwha!!!! wlang sumuko!!!everything is possible to a willing mind...nice working with yOu guys!!!



thank you also for being part of my dream come true ^.^








FAM ♥

happy valentines day... ^.^

I don't have any date on this day because I don't date.. hihi

The person I mentioned earlier, hihi^.^ wala na akong crush sa kanya.. hihi
attraction no more!!!thank you Lord!!!Last night I prayed that my feeling will just go away and let my eyes focus on my goals, and besides it's not the right time to fall in love ...haaay,,, and suddenly the feelings gone.. I only admire him for being nice,cute, tough ect.. etc..

I realized that if we want to achieve something we really want, we can do it although sometimes we tend to say that it's hard do it, no it's not that hard, it's just the mind who's hard to convince. Nothing is impossible to a willing mind remember..You should have to focus and remember the purposes you have in this earth and pray to God and boom!!!you do it without a sweat! hihi just like me..


I will just serve the Lord with all my heart while I'm waiting for the right time with the right one whom I will spend my love for him for the rest of my life and knowing my GOD is the best match maker , no worries!!..hihi^.^



anyway my valentine today is just another day, but knowing how God love me? Everyday is a valentines day...


ahihihi!!! I spent time with my cheering squad.. hihihi^.^ wlang nangyari hindi ako nahagis..which is my favorite part.. anyway... Goodbye for now..

it's not right...

Ohhhh!!!!valentines is coming!!!but I'm not excited..hihi actually I am because the love of the Lord for me is overflowing..yeah that is right...

hihi love...love....love...

when it will be mine?

all I have to do is

wait..wait...wait...

hihi^.^


The subject of my blog this time it's all about my crush ...my crush!!!
he's just a simple guy, sports mined person with a fair complexion and very tough one..he's my crush simply because he has the nice eye... killer looks... yeah his smile might kill me..yeah that's normal and it's just a mere crush..

But what if the feelings go deeper? It's turns to a attraction? normal pa ba yun?
he never know me at all and he doesn't even care if he will know..
and wala akong balak sabihin sa kanya.. duh?! not my personality,.

yihh!!!dapat hindi!!! I have to focus first on my goal remember! Love will wait..you are just attracted to someone but that's not love...remember!! God konow what's best focus!!!!

But one thing is for sure, he will not be interested on me..
ok lang..hihi.. basta aku madaming love sakin si LORD...

no right love in the wrong time... just will look at him from a far.. ganun nlang siguro noh.. hihi

Just appreciate the talent and his handsomeness.. hihi be friends nlang...not now!!!


hihi that's all...


advance happy valentines!!! ^.^ ♥

My big bro...

I'm talking about my real brother Paul, my kuya is really makulit.. he knows how to make me mad he also knows how to make me laugh hard. The reason why he is my subject to this blog is that I'm happy to have him as my brother..



Since I'm studying in Manila there is an instances that i ca'nt go home because of some school work have to finished first, i have to stay for Manila for 2 weeks.Boredom strikes as usual.. hihihi ^.^ but when I got home i saw my kuya playing Psp and he has downloaded my favorite Kpop video that I requested for a very long time, and I was like, "oooh... finally,," My kuya's way of annoying me is ..singing just infront of me as in his face is actually near to my face GRRRRRR...... nakakainis un!!!!then i said "Alam mo nkakainis yang ginagawa mo!!kakanta ka na nga lang itatapat mo pa ung muka mo!!alam mu yon?!!!" and then he said in nice manner, " namiss ko lang naman kayo." And suddenly I was silent for that moment and then I realized namimis din pla kami nitong mokong nato...


hihiihi ILOVEIT!!!my kuya and I sometimes we fight, and sometimes he is my partner in crime.. we do a lot of kalokohan but one thing I discover about him ,,he's kinda sweeet kuya...


hihii I love him... I'm always praying for him,, though he's not aware..


Thank You bestfriend for my kuya!! ^.^