BLESSEDday Confession #22 - "Flashback"

I decided to fix my old stuffs such as my Journals and my soooo many papers. ^.^(for those who do not know. I am fond of papers,ballpens and notebooks.)


I saw my old journals containing the past memories I went thru. And as I read those, flashback came.


well, I can actually dictate them all here but it's too long to dictate hihi ^.^
While reading I noticed some pages that I can say it's full of mourn and burden. Like some movies it's too tragic and heart broking. Melodramatic kung baga. ( this blog serves to be a witness)

I've read some pages that, I never thought I could handle it. At the back of my mind saying " Grabe, In my age, naranasan ko yun?" don't worry like I've said just like in movies it's dramatic.

One page indicates

" on the bus. my way to Manila. raining (------ 2009)" "While staring at the window I am praying for the LORD to rescue me . LORD I am asking for a heart that rejoices in the midst of this chaotic life. May I found joy in loving YOU"



I remember those! I Actually crying on the bus going to Manila covering my mouth so no one could hear me. ^.^

After remembering those memories it gives me a smile on my face instead to be frown.
I realized that, I am not able to conquer those with myself, I am with God.because of HIM I am now here, giving you my testimony.


here's my after trials reflection.

GOD heard me when I cried
He knew I was sad.
He gave his shoulders for me to lean on
He embraced me with unending love to comfort me
His words are enough to satisfy me.
He was there when I thought I was alone.
He rescued me.

I thanked the LORD after I went back to the past. Some tears fall into my eyes, full of joy eto nasabi ko " GRABE KA LORD! SOLID KANG WALANG KATULAD.!"


PS.
hindi ako nakapag fix ng gamit kasi nagbasa lang ako ng past journals hihi ^.^

BLESSEDday Confession # 21- Out weary!!

God is moving in my life, and He's allowing things that myself don't think can make it. But he promised me thru a prophesy that I will do things that are beyond my abilities that only with God, I am able to can make it.

I have been so weary one night,I have this strong feeling that the prophesy is now coming to pass, and many questions clashing inside my mind , like "Lord, do you want me to do it?", "Kaya ko ba?",and so many "what if's".

this time God want's me to do something related to my field that I am taking. Lay hands upon the sick, for short explanation.

I know it was God and so I prayed, the feeling of being weary was still there.
The next morning , during my morning bible reading, God answered,

Psalms 5:7
" Because of your great mercy, I come to your house LORD, I am filled with wonder as I bow down in worship at your holy temple."


I am always in awe when it comes of what God can do in my life. this is just a reminder that everything can happen when God moves. (even the impossible)

As i prayed for guidance, God says in Psalms 5:8

" You do what is right and I ask you to guide me. Make your teaching clear because of my enemies."

( I posted my status in Facebook saying " LORD guide me")

Enemies talaga oh, will do everything just to mislead you. But, I wo'nt let him win!
Right then, let the spirit of doubt and weary out of my body! And I am ready to serve the LORD wholeheartedly. And now, I am healed !


Happy Reading ^.^

BLESSEDday Confession # 20 - 4th time

Thade -- The name I gave him, combination of THAddeus and JuDE

THADDEUS - He obey the Lord, doesn't think that he's common and have personalities

JUDE - has talent and concern,a servant of the Lord.



He's the Servant of God , that's a fact. He's the one who gave TALITHA as one of my name. meaning, "Little girl Get up"
Kaya pag may tumawag sa kin na " TALITHA" panigurado si Thade yun.



teka bakit nga ba si Thade ang confession ko ??

last November 04, 2011 , Thade and I decided to meet after 2 years. yep! we haven't seen each other (ang tagal nun noh?)
The reason why we decided to meet , because I wanted to give him the updates during the conference that I attended . And also the baller that I bought during the event. I told myself " ay! magugustuhan ni Thade yan" (salamat nagustuhan naman)



I was so excited to meet him again, parang isang bata na niyayang magswimming sa Splash Island yun yung feeling.
For 2 years ngayon lang kami magkikita ulit. Kaya ganun.
I made my preparations , notebook(journal) about the event and the baller. and madaming testimonials, of course our main goal naman talaga eh ang pagusapan Si LORD sa mga buhay namin.


when I saw him, waiting for me outside the fastfood chain, Grabeee!!! Gusto ko na istart the conversation right away. haha!! ^.^ di naman halata na excited ako noh?


like what he said " No time wasted and the love of the Lord was communicated."
From start to finish si Lord lang talaga ang nag reign during that hour.

I am really enjoying this kind of converstion, with someone that is into God, like what my friend told me " Yung topic na hindi nakakasawa, si LORD yun eh, pag ka laging ganun, for sure walang dead air."




and even that conversation lasted for just ONE HOUR, alam naman namin na katabi lang namin si LORD and having a big smile on HIs face , ( yihhh!!! naiimagine ko^.^)
and sasabihin nya " kaya mahal ko tong mga to eh."

mahal ka din po namin LORD ! ^.^



Mama said, " you have to choose your friends , friends that could help you to grow and can push you up to the Lord when you're down"


Thade and Talitha
second time naming pagkikita, ( sorry wala na akong nakalap na picture namin nung una kaming magkakilala haha!)

Thade after 2 years.( may nagbago ba? maliban sa salamin?)

Fun trivias about our friendship


> Mukang bata
> we are on the same age
>Super love si GOD
> worshiper
> Loner ( I mean , can go alone)
>Our fellowship usually done in text and FB ^.^
> sa ilang years na na kaming magkaibigan 4x palang kami nagkita, ( pang 4th yung sa chowking)
> kung hindi dahil sa WWJD baka di kami ganun kaclose neto. (haha remember?)



kaya 4th time ang title neto kasi, pang 4th time palang kami nagkita neto in person, diba it seems na sobrang tagal na naming magkakilala. Ganyan kagaling si Lord! ^.^

1st - partner in workshop . "make me cry" wala naman umiyak.Talitha became my name.

2nd - acting workshop. Thade became his name.

3rd - Singing workshop at Joeanne's place.

4th - November 4 2011.


happy reading ^.^

BLESSEDday Confession #19 - Heavenly Daddy's Girl

In one of my devotion, God has Impressed me ;



Isaiah 41:10

" Don't be afraid , I am with you Don't tremble with fear , I am your God .
I will make you strong as I protected you with my ARM and I
will give you victories."


Vs. 13
" I am the Lord your GOD, I am holding your hand, so don't be
afraid, I am here to protect you."



And I realized that there's no room for worries and doubts,problems, and such
for God is not just there to watch us but He's there holding our hands as we walk .

I am reminded of this picture

A father carrying his daughter with delight( I am the daughter ^.^) . And what makes the daughter laugh? for she knows that His daddy will keep her safe and loved. TRUST is there.



To HIM I will put all my trust!!!


Thank you LORD.. ^.^

BLESSEDday Confession #18 - National Youth Prophetic Conference 3rd day ( last day)

last day of the Conference. ^.^



here's what happened.

Praise and worship led by the JIL woship team.

Lessons learned :


- the Lord has a great plan to each of us.
You are destined to do great things, You have a big purpose to change the Philippines.
You are not destined to be just ordinary, but you are destined to do EXTRAORDINARY.

keep your relationship with God deeper and your passion for God aflame, Ask for a 20/20 vision of your purpose.
start claiming it!! ^.^


Our dear Pastora Joy Pongco - LHMI senior pastor and also the Vision keeper of Pampanga..

waiting for the train at the LRT.. " guys sa Libertad station tayo ahh"

patricia, kariza and I, (grabee!! yung isa dyan nagind student ko sa sunday school.)

together with dang. grabeee we are in the same age lang oh..hihi

here's the people from the Apalit church.

altogether with Pastora Joy

Dang and the people from apalit

Reserved for the GLORY of GOD

with Bishop Dan Balais. wowow!!

Just want to share this photo. ahahaha!!! my tummy aches!! DOUGIE MOVES of Jeriel!! midnight in front of our church.. hahaha

natakpan akoo!!! hihi That's bishop Dan Balais shaking my hand.

BLESSEDday Confession #17 - National Youth Prophetic Conference day 2

Here's the happenings during the 2nd day of the National
Youth Prophetic Conference 2011. On the first day Prophet Sadhu
ask the pastors sitting in front to give their place for the youth, since
the event dedicated to the youth.
We want to get the place but since we came to the place 12:00 pm, and the gates were open at exactly 11:00 am so, our place we're in about 10 rows back, but still we are in front court. But in my case, I have to put on
my glasses because it's quite far and I suffer nearsightedness,haha!!




it started with a intercession for the Philippines. Praying in one voice. It's now
the time to use our authority and the power of prayer, the astrodome was shaken by
powerful voices of the youth. And we were given a chance to declare blessing and cast
out the satanic works. Pulling down the strongholds. Yeah! Prayer works dude!


After the prayer they blew the shofar, a loud shout of praises came to our mouth.
Jesus Revolution was the one who led us in praise and worship. As usual it was awesome
and so so great.! ( am talking about the presence of the Lord in that place not the band)


" know your Identity, pursue your destiny. God has a bigger plan for you."

It tackles about what God designed you. A interesting topic. YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD!
at ang anak ng PANGINOON ay HINDI TAMAD. kaya mga dear readers, alisin natin sa nature
ang pagiging tamad, we are not lazy! we are unique in our way, God made us with love.



And the second session was came from Pastor Ed De Guzman. He preached about the
preparation to fulfill our calling, And also he revealed how rich Philippine is.But for us
to fulfill that calling we must learn how to obey theLORD.




Prophet Sadhu said " ask the Lord to cleanse you from all impurities."
and many knelt down and pray, ask forgiveness , turn back to GOD.


We had to go home early, to avoid problems like the transportion, we were not able to finish the last
session but, all was absorbed and appreciated.





The pictures of the second day to be uploaded . Ayaw ng connection eh.. kill joy.. hihi




happy reading ^.^

BLESSEDday Confessions #16 - National Youth Prophetic Conference day 1

WHOOOOOOOO!!!! eto ang mga nangyari simula nung unang araw after I blogged Confessions 15

I am so excited that day, I stay up late until 2:30 i think. and my alarm clock was set 5:30 knowing that the
call time was 7 am in the morning giving myself a time to prepare.
All set my outfit, baon, water tumbler and my packed bag (that was prepared a night before).


I woke up 6:35 am wahhhh!!! am running late!! I had the fastest bath that I ever made, less than 5 mins
and so lame, my outfit's missing!! so I grab my pair of jeans and a shirt instead of my prepared outfit.
I also forgot my baon "GOGUMA" (sweet potato) for my friends.

I'm Late! :( ( sorry guys!)



The program started exactly 1pm. The ambiance was nice and the presence of God was there.


ang pangyayari?

- one of the speaker was Bro. Sadhu Sevaraj - an indian prophet.

He told us to kneel down . and Ask God to touch us. while in the presence of the Lord suddenly I felt something hot around my neck and down to my body,

and Brother Sadhu said " you may feel a burning sensation all over your body, it's God's way of touching you. If you feel heaviness in your shoulder God's touching you."


I cried in that moment and pray in tongues. I accidentally heard this conversation behind my back.

girl - " grabee!! naramdaman nyo yun?
boy "ang bigat nya"(tapping his shoulder)

after that, I ask the LORD

"Lord I want to feel your touch. Please please(Crying)"

and I feel someone heavy in my shoulder, it started in half of my head then down to my shoulder.

I told myself " He's here! He's here!!"

SUPER SAYA!!!!!


here's some of the pics on the 1st day

the Manila Hotel

overload!

Prophet Sadhu Selvaraj

the Girls

ME! hihi